Saturday, June 6, 2009

Another Day part 2

Most of the time, I can't defense myself with strong points. I keep asking myself why? Well... It's my personal problem i think.. WoW... I can speak fluently to someone like me(average) or people who are slightly lower than me. Not Insulting! Just telling the truth... But I can't speak Properly as in grammar errors, Spelling and etc to someone whom I think He/She/It are better than me. (Just Not Get Used To It) it's time to get up from deep well, and have diminion and multiply. I am a spirit, with one soul living in one body. LOL :D Recently I met this Gal, Inessa Wong.. Hope I didn't spell it wrong.. She came and She spoke... every single word containing "WHATEVER." Haha... I saw this verse in bible. ROMANS chapter 14 verse 23, But he who doubts is condemned if he eats, because he does not eat from faith, because he does not eat from faith; for whatever or not from faith is sin. Whatever= SIN. Thus, Speak by faith... I know you are a Christian and I hope you can see this.

Someone's birthday is coming... Everyone is busy with Assignments, Exams and Stuffs. Thinking Of master plan.... But a lot of things need to worry about.. Hmm Clueless* How about Give away my I-Pod touch? Money? My precious deodorant? or a good gift(memorable gift) LOL

Listening to August Rush Album- Someday by John Legend.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Another Day

Firstly, Meet my BoyFriend Farhana. Isn't she beautiful? Yes. Isn't she Hot? 104% Yes.
Don't get it wrong! She's my best friend in college.. Okay Let me go on and On. I'm tired of being tired with college assignments, SC meeting, and classes. But you'll will never hear me say TIRED to go to church services. Everyday the same routine, traveling the same path to college, eating at the same mamak stall, drinking MILO everyday, and doing something again and again. Something for nothing. practising is something I look forward everyday. Can you imagine that? Another thing, I had someone that always wanted to talk to me…someone that would just be there and say hi to me whenever they can. But not Him, This guy approached to me and said: Ling Ling XD... He's annoying, egoistic level- Maximum, his every phrase contains of FXXK, DXX, and etc.. LOL.. Well, those who knew him best sure get what i mean... Those who don't know just hear but not listen k (:

Sunday, May 31, 2009

I say things I missed to say few months ago

She used to call me Monster.. Well, as always, things are not as simple as they seem...When I heard the news of her, of course I thought right away that this was indeed my big chance...and I guess I just figured that, if this rumor was really true, then all the work might just be done for me...I sure didn't want to see her world turned upside down at such an important time in her life., and nobody else did, either. Of course, that also meant that She was going to have plenty of time over the next month or so to dig her grave even deeper, if that's indeed what she was doing. In fact, it seemed to me that she almost wanted to get caught. But it just seemed a little funny.What seemed even stranger was what happened a couple of months after I broke up with her. 2 nights after I was there for the sneak preview on her blog. I saw the labor day weekend. She wanted to set him straight, or something.I played dumb I've tried to bury it, I've tried to move past it, I've tried everything but one man up, take a stand, and actually try and do something about it. Like Nothing LOL. And that's what I have to do...I have to just lay it all on the line for her & see once & for all if this is what's really supposed to happen. I'm pretty sure leaving her in the first place was the dumbest thing, so at least I know it's not that. But I still don't know what's going to happen.I mean, I'm pretty sure she still loves me...and I'm pretty sure that, if it just came right down to what she wants, I'm pretty sure that she'd go for it...but again, things aren't that simple. I don't know that she loves him the same way that she loves me (I could always be wrong), but I don't know that she would ever be able to bring herself to hurt like that, Yes, I know she finally said that maybe we should try it again one day if we found ourselves single...but she's not single. And again, I don't have another 20 years to wait around for that to happen.So, here I stand, a man with a mission that I've been preparing myself for for years...and I have no idea how to pull it off. Hmm, I don't even know if I'm doing the right thing...I just know that I have to do it, for me if nothing else. Because this is it this time. After you & everything else, I know that I have to deal with all this somehow...I either have to finally make it part of my life, or I have to find a life apart from it. LOL... Changed My mind! I will think up a solution back to few months ago, But not anymore now or future.. Haha... Keep moving forward, letting go the past. (: